I can go back and CHOOSE A WILD CARD if I feel incapable of listing abilities.
I can WORK THE GIZMOS and MATH THE FOOD.
I can FAKE IT: curling up and dying inside while making an almond flour pancake and calling people sugarlumps.
I can BELIEVE it’s the human condition that the feeling of being overwhelmed comes and goes and will certainly go away again at some point.
I can REMEMBER to not compare my insides with other people’s outsides. I can barely remember to do this one. (And I can not remember where I read this advice.)
I can PARTICIPATE in D-Blog Week and TrialNet simultaneously.
Today, at Joslin…
Teplizumab CAN stop the progression of T1D in the siblings of children with the disease. Or at least it can and has in one of them. One of my ones.
T -15: 97 mg/dL (Fasting. Meh.)
T +60: 181 mg/dL (One hour after the drink. Borderline abnormal but irrelevant; no one cares about the 1 hour pp.)
T +120: 128 mg/dL (Two hours pp: totally normal. And this is the one that matters in this game.)
I can GIVE MEDICAL ADVICE: sign your children the fern up for this study!
Actually, I don’t feel that strongly about it. Everything with TrialNet is complicated. Am I glad one of my kids is cured*? No. I feel terrible.
This drug is depriving my other child of probably/maybe exactly what he needs: his big brother, who’s totally together & good at everything, to get diabetes. That would be perrrrrfect.
I mean I know I can’t make one child get diabetes in order to keep the other one company, but I CAN turn almost anything in to a hideous snarl of emotions.
*For the time being, who knows how long it will last, etc.
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