Endo Day, Doggone It

too many

The fella over there with the hella good hair just wanted to leave and go sledding.

Agony! The endo had a medical student today.

Usually the computer screen is angled toward me when the endo pulls up the Dexcom lines and pies. We look at them together and she points out things that possibly mean things which at worst makes me feel mildly like, “Gosh, I wish I’d noticed that,” but is mainly just interesting. And helpful.

Today, the screen was angled toward the medical student as the endo explained the Dexcom, how to look for patterns, and then they started asking me questions.


ENDO: You said that sometimes the Dexcom showed a serious low, like in the 40’s, but the meter showed a minor low or no low at all, but this one, this afternoon, the Dexcom showed him at about 74 and the Verio had him at 51, so…?

BIGFOOT: Well, that’s an exception. That was because of snow shoveling [Oh! My! God! I can’t just say what I think is true…they’re looking at all of the gadgetry to make sure it’s true!] I mean the OTHER times, or MOST of the other times [ACT NORMAL. They think you are an abusive parent who cares not at all about your child’s health] most of the other times, the Dexcom was sort of…exaggerating? [Shut up shut up now they think you think the Dexcom has a little exaggerating man living inside who posts the numbers.]

The medical student and the endo went through the Dexcom data low by low, comparing these to same-time Verio pricks (scroll, scroll, scroll) and same-time pump activity (more scrolling). I felt like I was being given a Brazilian in public, on a Salem witch trial-type platform, with towns persons pumping forks and brooms up and down while shouting YARRRR.

The endo and medical student smiled beatifically, confident in their own niceness and non-threateningness, yet I did feel quite threatened and defensive and afraid. I’ve been fudging this whole thing and they could see it all right there, with graphs and three devices verifying my fakery. YARRRR. I should tell them about the juice.

BF: And I know our basal program is all wrong, but it might not all show up on the graph or the meter, because if the Dexcom is predicting a low, we’ve been giving sips of juice, and then dialing back the basal, but like only a tiny bit at a time, but it’s not enough…I mean we’re using juice every day—

And then the endo said, “You are doing a great job.”***

BF: Are you joking?

ENDO: No. Of course you’re doing a great job, are you kidding me?

BF: I thought you were going to say he had too many lows or that his target BG is too low?

ENDO: He doesn’t have many significant lows. I mean, we will make adjustments to try to have fewer lows, but he is usually in range. Good job!

Our endo really is super nice. And smart! And patient. She wishes us no harm. She wishes us well! Breathe. She is not trying to put me on trial or burn me up or rip out my hair. Try to remember that in April.

***Even if this is a lie, it helps. It makes me want to keep trying. Thank you.



  1. gstabach · January 28, 2015

    you are amazing!!!


  2. skchrisman · January 29, 2015

    Holy Moly! Stress! Sounds like they sat and nitpicked a bit. But hey, doggone it! I’m sure his A1C is still superb! I gotta know! Did you unscroll your record log and fill the room with your perfectly drawn crinkle fries, granny apples and such?


  3. Catherine Bardagy Winchild · January 29, 2015

    PLEASE TAKE THIS IN!!!! You ARE doing a great job.

    “I felt like I was being given a Brazilian in public, on a Salem witch trial-type platform, with towns persons pumping forks and brooms up and down while shouting YARRRR” <—fucking hilarious and I know this feeling so well it hurts.

    We should do driveway Brazillians!

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  4. Pam · January 29, 2015

    We’ve had medical students sit in too, and while I’m glad their being trained by great endos like ours- and yours- it completely changes the dynamic and you described it perfectly.

    And for the record, I’m fairly certain there IS a little exaggerating man living inside the Dexcom.

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  5. StephenS · January 29, 2015

    Of course you’re doing a great job. No question about it.

    And… nice use of the word “beatifically”.


  6. shannon · January 29, 2015

    dude did i tell you this? at our last appt, the endo turned to L and said “YOU ARE DOING A GREAT JOB. KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK!” this has never happened before! i couldn’t believe it. it is insanely validating!

    ps props on A1C twinniness!

    Liked by 2 people

    • Katy · January 30, 2015

      A nice compliment would be, “You are my favorite patient. I wish everyone had a mother like yours.”


  7. type1dmom · January 29, 2015

    Oh my! The suspense, lol. Love the validation though. Angelina’s endo is fond of saying “You’re the expert” which is her way of saying “I don’t have to do anything, you’re already doing it all fabulously”. We have our next appt next Thursday. Sadly this may be our last visit with this endo though because I am wanting to switch pediatricians and we have an HMO so that means a switch to an entirely different medical group that the current endo isn’t a part of. I hope the new one will still tell me I’m the expert.


  8. mollyjade · January 30, 2015

    I really think every endo appointment should start off with, “I can see how hard you’re working, and you’re doing great!”

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