Before I started the 48-day project of drawing everything Bubs eats on a roll of receipt tape, I barely noticed the juice.
Now I see juice, juice, and juice. A nip of prophylactic juice for a looming hypo. Rescue juice, to give a guy a bump. Zero days without juice! And zero nights. Especially nights: hold a Juicy Juice straw near his sleeping face, and Bubs’s mouth steers itself right onto it, demolishing a half box in one mighty tug. Does the very berry fragrance enter his dream? The lips seem to knows what’s coming. Also this: what colleges provide maternal trundle beds?
I need to but am reluctant to tinker with basals. It takes for ever to settle into a plan. Over the last week, we’ve taken baby steps here and there, dialing back from, say, 0.7 to 0.65u/hour. But what we need is a total overhaul.
Meanwhile, clinging to the skeleton of the current basal program has turned us into the kind of people (monsters!) who keep a juice box on our person’s dresser at all times. To save ourselves the 2AM trip to the fridge. Sometimes two juice boxes on the dresser. Our failure rate is 100%, and we have grown accustomed to it.
When my first knitting teacher told me to rip out all of the stitches on my mitten down to the cuff because of a cable error I’d made on the back of the palm, I was furious. (But silent! I was 19.) Why couldn’t it be my choice to have an off-center cable? And why did we have to learn to make cables for our first project? Way too hard. Why couldn’t we make a washcloth?
Programming basals is like making a fisherman’s knit sweater, only it’s floor length and has a hood, and pockets, and you have to get every stitch right or your knitting teacher will come into your bedroom in the middle of the night to criticize you and jab your feet with needles.
Fortunately, we will see the endo this week. She will open her shoebox of cords and download our data and look at Dexcom line graphs and pie charts and divine a plan. And I’ll be all, whatever. This makes no sense but I guess we’ll give it a try. And it will work.