Anxious. Unable concentrate work. Brain is blank screen. Probably lose 1 million dollars.
Part of thing: so tired. The usual.
11PM 239 (correction)
2AM 240 (correction)
Other part of thing, friend Bigfoot out of touch with die. Suicide. Not believe. Hope secretly drug addict, die overdose. Not die on purpose seem little bit better. Three schoolchildren.
Bigfoot buy friend old house when move China, Bubs 2 years old/Jack 4. Currently sit at kitchen counter friend design own hands. Wipe off stove friend choose from scratch + dent. So much in common this person at turn of century: Orla Kiely sale cardigans, magenta yarn balls, nursing babies, Who Will Run the Frog Hospital?, kilim carpets, Mitchell Gold leather sofas, Red Zinger iced tea, writing, haircuts drastically shorter in back than front. Other thing realized had in common: people felt uncharacteristically comfortable say “you’re kind of weird” and “you look so tired” this friend. Many people comfortable say these phrases Bigfoot too! Remember so happy share appalling experiences.
When move fridge clean behind, find glittery bra. When dismantle bathroom cabinetry, find magenta thong.